So, if you are reading this deeply into my blog, I am hoping that you have arrived here as a result of me seeing my own plan thru to completion. Today, I took the afternoon finally re-reading all of the documents I created while fighting for my life during 2017 and have decided to get them off my hard drive. It was a good chance to reflect on all the strides I have taken since getting my head above water, while also peering into the mind of what was once a mad man. What better place to hide these documents for now than publicly in plain sight?
If I have succeeded in my goal, you have read the book. If you’ve read the book, you should have some level of understanding about the state I was in during the crafting of the following posts.. If you have not, please remember not to judge me by my cover.
The documents I have posted today were all written between my 04/05/17 and 05/21/17, in the peak of my two-part psychological breakdown. The initial document was written on the plane ride home from Costa Rica, the final document was written just before leaving Costa Rica for a 2nd time in that six-week span.
While there are parts that may seem childish and even antagonistic, they will always be special to me for the simplest reasons. They document my death, and they document my birth. It was a cataclysmic period for my own mental well-being. I am happy to have saved some documentation of my thought processes throughout this journey. If you have read my work, and are working to kill the devil within you, I am hopeful that this will help you find the way.
It’s not about killing the devil within us, its about befriending him. He is killed with kindness. It’s an old cliché, but love truly is the answer. We all have it in us, and we all just have fucked up ways of showing it.
I hope you enjoy the posts and seek comfort in my own mental self-destruction.
With Love,
Andrew M Jernigan
The Journey 