The following essay was written on May 21st 2017, while sitting in a place called “The Buddha House” in Jaco, Costa Rica. This is the final chapter of the works written during the time of my journey.
Dear World,
I cannot be entirely sure as to what happened yesterday, it was quite the exhilarating experience. I don’t know what level of recovery will be required on my behalf, but I am pretty sure that whatever life throws at me, will all be a direct result of what I have brought on myself. It’s like riding the best gosh darn wave you will ever be able to possibly imagine. Solving the most complex riddle in the entire world. I keep wishing I could just end it. It’s extremely frustrating to be looking everywhere for the right answer, and in the meantime find that you literally have zero control over any action or movement that you make.
It comes in waves, you never know what the next 30 seconds is going to bring. Sometimes, it seems like something stupid that I did is paid off rather quickly. Other times, it takes an entire sequence of events to unfold before I can really trace back what happened in that moment. It is terrifying, but it is careless. I hope one day to be able to properly walk you through it, right now I am more concerned about my own safety.
Hopefully in the near future, life will be much more simplistic and I won’t have the mounting pressures that I am trying to face here. I suppose this is what we call a “black out.” I don’t know when the light will be on, and when the light will be off, but I am happy that the fine people of this area have accepted my tardy, and we can look forward to a brighter future tomorrow.
Andrew Jernigan
05/21/2017
For now, this is the end of my docu-dump. Thanks for reading!
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